Kate Addo

Wow, where do I begin.... okay, well, I came from a pretty regular family, but things changed rather abruptly when I became a teenager. I always felt different from everybody around me. I knew I was different; just didn't fit in with any cliques. It was alright though, because I usually just sort of floated around others, and wondered why they were so bossy, or mean, or petty. I stayed away from being involved so I wouldn't be hurt by their so obvious cruel natures. As a child, I could not handle crowds; still can't. I felt others feelings as though they were my own, and just couldn't decipher what was mine or what was from others. As a child this was all so confusing, but as I grew, I came to understand that I am an empath... My family was wonderful; especially my brother. I always looked up to him and loved him so very much. My sister was another story. She had a coldness about her that always made me fear her. Oh, I loved her, but I feared her at the same time, so I was an extremely obedient little sister to her; went along with anything she said. My brother was more fun, and he gave me joy just to look at him. *smile* such is life being the baby of the family. My mother? I always felt I had to prove myself to her, and could never find the unconditional love and acceptance from her that all little children need, so I developed a very low self esteem for my adult life. Working on that now, and I suppose I will be working on that till I am lowered into the ground. My Father? Oh yeah. He was so loving, and understanding, and I knew he loved me no matter what. He was a wonderful man, and was definitely the hub the held the family together. He was the person that helped me through all my trials, even after his untimely death. As a parent and grandmother, it is always his words and love that I pass on to them. My children and my grandchildren all know my father, and my brother, although my brother does not know any of them. That makes me sad, but I have so many babys in this world, and they all bring me joy. ........... more to come......